He has the exact same moral code as I do, and damnit, how the hell am I supposed to find somebody who complements me as well as he did? Somebody I'll never have to worry about, because we share the same beliefs, and even though we're different people, we're like two rooms of the same house, built on the same foundation, except it wasn't strong enough, and now I'm all alone and I can't stand it.
I thought I was getting better about this whole not-crying thing, but sometimes my feelings come back and bite me in the butt.
At this point, I can't even see myself ever truly getting over him -- Because I don't want to. I still believe that he's the one for me, that someday we'll be together again... I still love him so much, and it's just not fair that I can't be with him.
Damnit damnit damnit, and I was doing so well, too. Had everything all figured out and my emotions under control...
Sniffle.
prev next